Just Sadness

I am just feeling empty, soulless, unreasonably lonely and incredibly unable to "fit in". It's not like I really care about fitting in, I certainly don't care for that anymore. I have my own world and I like it but sometimes you know, it's like the absence of something is very present in me, of something that makes me ...Me and that which makes me be.

The fact that your existence is based on others and if others don't acknowledge you are there then you simply don't exist, makes me wonder if I really want all this. Wherever it is belonging means I simply can't find it here. I still after all this time feel completely out of place.

There are no words for the way I am feeling and there aren't reasons to keep trying so hard to reach something you deep down know you will never find. It's the warmth, is the lovely feeling of knowing you are not alone, even if there is only one person but for that person you are they're everything.

.....Back to dreams....yes they do come truth I said I will tell so I am...Remember all that dreaming with this kid? Well I saw him this weekend...I knew it my dreams never lie. Wherever will come I will let it happen and I will live it.

So, really for like crying...I will...will write on the story I never finished soon enough at least not to be easily forgotten.



I love you Luna I do very Much ...I hope I can stick around but deep down I know it won't be long.