On Love

Waking up everyday, trying not so hard to understand most things. Wondering whether or not these are the right choices but time goes by too fast to even be able to choose before hand. So, taking easy...it actually sounds easier than it is. I want to believe in most things I do, I don't want to make the same mistakes but yet again I want to live and one thing is completely opposite to the other.

As you move on, in life. You realize which the important things are, you are able to see your life from a different perspective and it gets so much harder to make mistakes. Yes, just like that to make mistakes, just because you now know how much will they change your life either for good or bad.

Taking changes in love for example, it gets harder and harder every time. There is a point where you just don't feel like believing in anything, anymore. The thought of loving ...scares me. I certainly think it freaks me out, completely. I just don't feel like going through this all over again.

Somehow, I think ...I know. I have always belong to someone. I was just trying really hard not to keep on loving "Him". Why is it? There is an emptiness, an unfulfillable emptiness without this being in your life. This is when your day to day becomes purposeless, when everything seems unreasonably sad and when regardless of how much people you have....you feel completely empty.

There is the need of purpose and purpose gets so much easier when there is someone walking with you and telling you, that you'll make it. The lack of purpose and the unbearable routine can and will take you back to square one. Dreaming on it.