Finally

Working on forgetting helps you to never finally forget, working on moving on gets you so busy you eventually just forget. Here I am, not the me you knew OH!! NO!! The me I didn't even know, I have been able to get over the feeling, the curse has unleashed and I am free to live yet again amid the craziness of this never ending story.

September was to become a nightmare but people has saved my soul and I have saved my own life; The One (who no longer is anything closer to that), has come back to my life in such time where I realized I no longer feel a bit of love for him and as I read "Hate is a feeling directly link to love yet indifference has the ability to kill". I felt indifferent to his suffering and his sadness, I still feel some remains of love in the deepest, darkest places of my heart but now I just can't love him anymore. I have decided to be his friend and I will "Be there" as much as possible, I will do as much as I can to make his life easier.

Not that he deserves any of it, this is the way I feel because I fell and I fell way to hard.