Is it Over?

I keep my head up all the time,
I think I am scare of my self
the real one, the one I keep hiding from the world.

I want to go back to myself but I just can't find the road to it, I haven't been writing at all. Not in my Journal, my blog or my dream journal; I am not writing poetry or sad tragedy. I haven't been doing any of those things that make me...Me.
Now still waiting to be able to say what I really feel, I sit here in the little time that I have the priviledge of spending with myself and decide to go back to my Blog.

Here with my soul so hidden from my heart, with my mind so messed up with the lies I tell myself; I sit writing. So much has happened, it's been months and I just realize that so many things get missed by my blog and really they just get missed by me. I am by nature a social person and also a friend but I believe I need to fix some issues I have:

* I can't let people meddle in my life so much

* I must take the chances I wish whenever I want

* I Need not to trust people so much, actually I HAVE to not trust people anymore

* I must say what I feel, when it is most certainly necessary to do it

* I need to set standards and I must not conform with less

* I need to trust my instinct and stick to the fact that I have to take decisions based on them

* I can't ask others their opinion of my relationships, I must do what I feel and think is right

If I hopefully am able to do this and apply this to my life I am very sure it will get way better and I will be able to be free of the responsabilities I am taking upon myself and do not belong to me. People need to let me live my life my way.