I have been writing thoughts in my head, I have been thinking that I might be able to make it all happen. I have been making love to you in my head over and over again. I have certainly talk myself into forgetting I ever,ever loved you...and yet again I have wasted all this time since I still feel for you.
Wherever it is the reason why I still feel so confused over whether or not I love him is real. Now I have decided to engaged myself in a let's say "Open Relationship... I have discover I don't fear intimacy as I used to and I no longer believe in Love or at least in making love. However I think I have found myself to be unreasonably helpful to others and incredibly unhelpful to myself and this must stop in order for me to make the best out of my own life..
Yes! It's probably why half the puzzle in still unfinished and the pressure is higher as I am to move out by November the first ..then I will tell and I will know where I am going at least tomorrow, which is scary enough.
October 4, 2008
Times of Insanity
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You're moving out? Congrats! Times of insanity abound here too. And it's October already!
I left my phone number in a comment, BTW. You still haven't caught it.
So you're back...now it's otherwise I am still moving only I am moving on my own...will post on it....you'll know the why's.
Love you..will call you.
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